The God, Einstein and me

Today I am going to write a strange theory, some of you people may find it bizarre.
Tonight after had my dinner I was walking inside my college campus & suddenly a fast moving train distracted me. By a jerk which pinged me the Einstein's equation (E= mc2). I thought if the mass and energy are transformable that means the mass is also a form of energy. Practically it requires a lot of energy to pull a train, so anyone can think that a small amount of energy is driving a huge amount of energy. Strange, energy is forcing energy. But I could see only the moving train and even not that small amount of energy, It's a perfect illusion, I guess.
Now according to this everything in the universe is an illusion, even my body; my hands, my fingers and my eyes too, my eyes see only the mass which is also a part of energy.
THEN WHO I AM?
WHO THE HELL IS WRITING IT?
Strange, I don't know myself........
Now take an another view.
Lets take an assumption that the God is everywhere in the universe, those who don't believe in God can assume it a form of energy like heat energy, sound energy or even wave energy. (Do you remember the all equations of waves viz kinetic and potential energy in a wave train?)
Let it be, tell me one thing; sometimes have you felt an energy surrounding you or inside you?
The energy which does feel you like heaven or tries to bring you to the another state beyond the horizon by leaving your gross body.
There is endless description of this journey, I cant explicate even no one can because it can be only sense.
So if the God is distributed uniformaly in the universe, then whatever the concentration of God outside my body is, should exactly equal to inside me. It shows that it can penetrate my body in the same way as the X-rays do. And we know that X-rays travel with a speed of light so it suggests the God too. But according to Einstein if somebody moves with a speed of light, he will get dissappeared and massless. Hence if I travel with that speed, is it possible to see the God?
Or somehow if we able to convert that energy into a huge mass, then could you imagine the shape?
Secondly an experiment done by some scientists: that just after the death, a human body losses some of its weight instantaneously. Again it reflects that soul also contains some mass but according to our assumption its an energy.
Now a question arises; soul is whether mass or energy or BOTH?
Is it possible for any matter to be in both the forms?
If it's true then I think, if anyone could able to convert that mass into energy, he can feel the God even before the death. And by regaining original position can come again in this physical world.
If someone have gone through the five yogas by swami vivekanad namely Gyanyoga, Karmayoga, Bhaktiyoga, Rajyoga ad Premyoga. You can find the same thing stated by him too. From my personnal experience I can say that all illusions are an omen to reach a common goal.